I can’t complain about a thing really, the scary ride was nothing to do with anyone other than God having a laugh with me, tossing me around telling me to remember where i have been and what i have done, who i have harmed and, as he points his finger from the sky, i know this is me after all, King chaos, Queen of drama most deep. I got out on deck only once this trip, the weather is always a bit grey in the Atlantic. I saw nothing but sky. I enjoyed the massages and the facials. I loved the time to think, although it was a battle to understand me in all of it. Its a tall order this being away form home lark, even though my life has never been any different. This is me see who i am. This week i have thought about me and my journey and where i need to be, Firle, Dulwich, children, work. Its all about the heart and where it needs to be and how it feels, as time runs its clock down all i can do is think about my journey, boxes must be ticked. I did that in March and, wow, Balham, see who i found! Its time to tick the boxes. Ray has ticked his own boxes, he has been at sea now for 26 years, he takes his wife wherever he goes, they have been married for 40 years, its a love story, its as deep as the sea he sails and thats great. Tonight he hung out in the crew bar where the band played, it was free beer and pizza, we talked about the workshops and how great it could be on other Cunard ships. Ray is head of entertainment on the ship. Zoe is the wonder woman who makes things happen, she is so lovely and works so hard to keep us all happy. Not at all easy. And then i thought, i could be doing this for the rest of my life if i cheer up. This week has been another great success, sixty people have written songs and they will leave the ship with, a song they never thought they would have. Its a real treat for them and im happy to be a small part in this clock that ticks, it ticks many boxes. And tonight it was action stations below deck playing for the crew, free pizza and beer. Some of us i hear made it last all night long. We have bonded with the entire ship now, as only a bunch of muscians can do. Drummers and bass players aside. Fun was had by all. What a great way to end the crossing for everyone. The big show, the end of the pier show. All of the writers and the would be’s come to the theatre for a reveal of their songs. Today the show ran smoothly and each song was applauded by the well populated theatre. Simon again stole the show with his family song sung by three generations of family, it was so catchy and so Simon, its a lovely gift he has. Matt and Claire rolled out the barrel and Angie, with a ginger hangover, refined her group so well. Geoff made us all laugh with a song about Dubai, where all good ships end up as hotels. Kate groomed a nice feeling with her group, Chris Sheehan and Guy delivered a simple song, lovingly sung by the group. A fine time was had by all, well almost all. One man came up to me and complained about his guitar solo not being heard, there was nothing i could do about that, these things happen and i was so sorry he was upset. I can’t cover the whole show, but the team i have on board do a fine job of doing just that. And so the crossing ends in fog, fog for miles and the horn blows. Its a hurry up and wait now, my flight another day away. Sit still Christopher, its over before its begun. Life is over before it begins, but you never know that at the time.